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UNTOLD STORIES at 12:00 AM


It's Friday again...finally! wooohooo~

I skipped my Malaysian Studies class today..because this subject was TOO boring to me. Try to imagine you have to sit 3 hours in the lecture hall and listen to all those so-called-bullshit. 1 jam pun tak boleh tahan laa cikgu. omg! what more 3 hours?! well, okay change topic.


went out with Niki and Wei Liang just now. Hmm Vivi 'ffk'. so Niki came and picked me up. Niki, don't drive too fast man. He haven't left to U.S yet due to some reason..but he will be leaving soon.. next Wed I think..aikss. This Niki is getting more and more pro nowadays. wait! pro as in 'zha' and 'zhat' people aha! pity Liang~ And now I knew one thing, he doesn't actually know what ' A.K.A ' means. (as known as) lol! Ok our first destination was Old Taste kopitiam, Taipan. We ordered so little but how come so expensive? Liang shall treat us ;p . After that we headed off to Puchong and ate Hokkien Mee. I think is Hokkien Mee if im not mistaken. And they really made me laughed my ass off man. haa! Knowing a buddy like you has made me smile in a million ways.


having a heavy flu now. sighs suffering!

xm signing off*

p/s: Sunday kk? :)


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BETWEEN THE MILES at 8:14 PM




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I think he's probably still on his flight to U.S now? I don't know it takes how many hours to reach there. He had to go off to some place over dunno-how-many miles away from his friend and family, to a city where he knew absolutely no one. (maybe his relatives?!)


Before we got separated, we had been very close friend. Well recalling the past, we used to met up with each other almost every day. Then, sometimes we'd end up sitting on the chairs outside of my house in the midnight. We would talk about a lot of things. We had a lot things in common, we even shared our dreams.

I have very few friends who are true to my heart..yet, you're one of them. When I sick, you even wanted to find a taxi and tried to bring medicine to my house, you comfort me when I cry, you accompanied me wherever I wanted to go. Those were a part of the memorable moments we had. Before long, we grew up and I went to study in college. At present, we have poor communication. Indeed, we had a lot of memorable moments we shared for a long time. Now that we have been SO far from each other, no matter what..thanks for the impression you made that will stay with me for always. I'll miss you my dear friend. and thanks for the msg you sent to me last night.


** saying goodbye to a dear friend is never easy, but sometimes, it's the only right thing to do for him.


p/s: err my baby won't jealous gua?! hee!

signing off.


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WELCOME TO THE WORLD OF STRESS at 9:03 PM



I DON'T WANT TO GO COLLEGE ! but I've no choice. T.T

the last time I've this kind of ' feeling ' was when I'm still form 3..and that's the main reason why I transfered to Seafield. After 3 years..this feeling back to me AGAIN! do you know how torturing ?! One of our favourite sayings, " you are what you eat". Well, the same is true of my thoughts .. " we are what we think ". If you think " you can " anything is possible..but if you think " you can't ", then we are defeated before we even begin.

I CAN'T! I need a rest for this moment now.


one thing I would like to mention here, DON'T ever scold bad words to girls. Girls are different with guys OK? you will never know how hurt it can be sometimes. Guys can speak as rude as they want no matter where they are..and it doesn't seemed like a problem for them..yeah nvm. BUT if a guy scold bad words to a girl, you're not a gentlemen after all. ( no matter you mean that or not ) K? thxbye!


p/s: I need my baby so badly now. sobs


* you can actually ignore this post.


signing off.

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SWEETEST ADDICTION at 9:58 PM

I don't have the time & opportunity to catch SPEED RACER yet! *wait for me plsssss*

yesterday went to Pyramid with BB Sandy again. uhhh I now declare my second home is Pyramid. I went there because I wanted to buy some present thing to Niki as he's going U.S very soon to further his studies for don't-know-how-many-years I think. He once a very very very best friend of mine. We bumped into each other when I resit my undang test. (yes i failed my undang test for the first time) and now, I sincerely wish him all the best in his future. For me, study oversea is a golden opportunity, but at times I'm thinking in my mind, I must know one thing as well..it's not easy to 'menyesuaikan diri' at a new place after staying here for so many years. different culture, different food and different peoples. nvm I know he'll miss Msia.




after that,we had lunch at our favourite restaurant Kim Gary.



after lunch we headed to Forever 21. yes, like what Sandy said..what's pyramid without Forever 21?
















xm signing off ~

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WHAT GOES AROUND COMES AROUND at 10:29 PM


woohoo I love Friday and Tuesday the most! why? because I don't have to go college :)

College was a place that I could exactly feel all the stress-ness and emo-ness. I wondering why peoples are enjoying their college life so happily?? Just 1 month ++ and I'm SO f***king sick of that place already. Conclusion is, college life wasn't the life I desire. I feel so alone. I can't ' depend ' on Mr Hong Jiun because he can suddenly ' disappear ' and go to chit chat around with other classmates. after that the 1st thing that would entered my mind was : " ehh where is that fellow huh?? " urhh its okay. I didn't put the blame on him..his freedom. He can choose when to go with his friends. well it makes no different, I don't mind being alone coz I'm SO used to it since small. I also understand sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our life..if God allowed me to go through my life without any obstacles, it would cripple me. I would not be as strong as what I could have been too right? But, I still cant get use to the life without Sandy/ Wendy / Vivi. We've been stick together for two yrs. ARGHH I seriously don't feel like continue my second semester in Metro anymore. I would rather go Tar College instead :( ( I shall consider about it )

I'm quite upset today. but I managed to spent some time with baby today! so, =) lahh hee. The first destination we went was Taipan. after that we went to the park that near by my house. . 18years old ppl play swing. childish? NO! Do you know the saying bout there's plenty of fish in the sea? baby, u're the only fish out there that good enough for me. If you ask me about the love, I can't answer you. But if you ask me who I love, the answer is you. There's a sparkle in your eye that only I see! lovess


gosh my hand bengkak like-don't-know-what! it hurts me so muchh * nvm I know you can't see * -___-


p/s: Niki has a farewell party 2mr.


xm signing off.

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TAKE A BOW at 11:59 PM







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went to Giant to buy some snacks / tit-bits . *mulut gatal* I can't live without them weyy.








bf says i'm getting fatter and fatter and i need to exercise. that HJ so called image spoiler complain the same thing everyday too! so serious MEH? :(

after that went usj2 yum cha with Bi Syen and the so called image spoiler..lol. (He's gonna kill me) Never see BS for quite some time d. so we talked crap as usual. I went home before 12. I promised my dear not to go home late. I didnt break my promise k




p/s : good luck to baby and sandy for tmr presentation. gambateh! lovesss


its time to sleep..baby nagging.

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NO SECRET at 12:00 AM

yesterday my cousin came over my place from Penang..i never see them since CNY...awww miss them loads! they went to Genting first before came to my house. 6 of them came. so they sleep my grandma and my room..I slept with my daddy. oh hell this was the very first time i slept with him in my 18 yrs living. okay I know its ridiculous k. well, the next day they planned to go Pyramid. which mean I could meet up with my girls there (:

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Dee bought many things today. happy la?? hee! We were fascinated by all the clothes/tops/bottoms in the shop window. er you know..this is how girls 'behaves' right? Dee and I bought colour lens. At first I was refused whether should I buy or not...but that fella say if we buy 2 then he free 1 for us. OMG he convinced me. And so..I could not contain myself for temptation. aha! Dee doesn't want to buy 2 boxes ..so how?? duhh I buy lor. It's not very expensive actually. That fella free 2 bottle of solution for both of us some more.





off to bed.


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THE ROAD OF LIFE at 12:05 AM



I thought this semester wasn't going to be too bad for him, because it's just the first semester. But now I realized, all of his classes were going to be giving out tons and tons and tons of homework / assignments. What i know is..architecture is not easy to study at all. Knowing him stayed up so late to rushed his assignments makes me so worried. Seeing him so stress bout his studies makes my heart lies in pieces.


The weight of the life lies heavily across his shoulder. I know he struggle so hard so long. I know he make a great efforts. I REALLY UNDERSTAND OK my dear. but, I couldn't help. stress-ness eats him! Assignments drives him insane. How should I help you to release your stress? What should I do to make you feel stress-free?


we cant see each other so often like other couples. I know you miss me. I miss you LOTS too! but there will always be hard times for us. aiksss life is so suffering. GOD, it's too much to bear! don't you see??


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TRUE LOVE COMES QUIETLY at 11:28 PM



today baby 'da bao' food and brought it to my college. Awww SO sweet of him! don't you think so?lol. because I've half and hour break only..sobs. We eat together, we laugh together, we enjoyed our lunch. but my dear, i don't eat taugeh k.


你最心疼我把眼哭红
记得你曾说过
不让我委屈泪流



its getting late. off to bed.

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LIFELESS at 10:02 PM

• 1. the so-freaking-hot weather pissed me off man!

• 2. especially for the Mr. Lee Hong Jiun a.k.a the image and mood spoiler who always complain boring boring boring. lol bear with it k! Why I called him as a mood spoiler is simply because he LOVES to mention ' Australia ' dis word purposely! it gets me so frustrated can? and this guy here like guys more than gurls I think. What he did in class everyday is wai ming wai ming OR jia wei jia wei! (classmate's name ) arghh omg ear pain la! *he' s not gay lah btw*
  

• 3. college life was tiring! assignment, quiz, presentation and bla bla bla stressed me up. BUT have you ever seen a stress-free college student? I guess no. Stress is something we all have to deal with in life right? most importantly, don't stress about being stressed. * cakap mudah buat susah kan? * aiksss
  

• 4. I never see my gf for don't-know-how-many-days already. although we're in the same college.

• 5. Miss him like crazy. I just wanna steal out a single moment of his busy life and make him smile.

• 6. So many things I wanted to buy but, I'm broke! what a sad case sighs =(

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TELL ME THAT YOU NEED ME at 10:27 PM



I miss the boyf so much man!! but he is million of miles away ( sounds so 'kua cheong' huh -.-) never see him for 5 days already. aww torturing! well, thats the way it was meant to be so I don't want complain too much, after all this was my choice. simply because I love you (:


p/s: having Account test 2mr. I HATE ACCOUNTS to the max man! goddamnit



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INSPIRATIONAL LOVE at 1:19 AM




what I know is, people only realized what they had after they lose it..so I always remind myself to hold onto what I have and never let it go. tell me is it wrong ? or not? if my world were crumbling down..you're the one I'd want around. Trying to forget someone you loved is like trying to remember someone you never knew..don't you think so?? but what I understand is, sometimes it's hard to love someone, because we are too afraid of losing them.


sometimes late at night when all the world is sleeping..I stay up and think of you.

We always talked all night about the rest of our lives..where we are gonna be when we turn 25? 26? or 27? get married? BUT if you get the big job and make the big money..when you look back now..will this jokes still be funny?


p/s: so sorry for the emo post.


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FATE at 11:14 PM

I dunno should i cry or should i laugh ?! but why i feel like crying more now... T.T


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YOUR LOVING HEART at 7:04 PM

First of all,




your unselfishness displays always.. you always putting me before yourself. I knew it right from the start although I didn't express my feelings out. Thank you so much for all you do. It is a privilege and a pleasure to have a mom like you. I love you!


p/s : always remember to appreciate what you have before it's gone!


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ALWAYS BE MY BABY at 2:56 PM

addicted to Mariah Carey - Always be my baby this song. * Although this album released since last year November *

well, I've been waited so long and FINALLY



as you know, I really do love guys with small eyes. my baby has small eyes too lol. small eyes very cute can? but, many people like to criticize or judge him (RAIN) so unfavorably and harshly.. what '' RAIN SO GAY LA...RAIN SAU PEI LA'' and so on. I wonder why. come on he doesn't offended you right? He just play his role as an artist/ singer. He gay or not gay is non of your business alright? Those who criticize others often are not perfect either. so don't la always discuss the merits of him. ish

thou i don't know what this movie is all about. but baby promised will watch together with me...right right?? (:



p/s: ARGHH I MISS BABY BOY SOOOOOOOOOO MUCH MAN :(



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OLD SCHOOL MEMORIES at 10:31 PM



lol I was offered to continue my studies in my ex school - Seafield.. like DUHH who wants to see PN UNG again? who wants to wear that HOT baju kurung again? -______-


when we went to school we were told what to do..fun was gone in our heart, we just try to fulfilling the school and parent's wish. Now that we left school, I wanted our old fun back..yet, it would not come back again. I really did miss my high school a lot.. miss my madams, miss those moment can gather together with my girlfriends everyday. and perhaps, I can get to see him everyday also?! (: however..school is not really cool..last time we have to work hard to get good grades..but now we have to work EVEN harder to get a pass in college wth!


p/s : dear don't be upset because of that small matter k! you will always have me.


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ITS BEEN AWHILE at 12:21 AM

I GET LOST IN THE NOTHING-NESS INSIDE OF ME




tuning into : 倒带 - Jolin Tsai


說的未來到底多久才來
總是要來不及才知道我可愛 ~~


WHAT I LOVED MOST at 10:10 PM

had my oral presentation today..and FINALLY it's end now woohoo! btw I look weird in formal wear so am not gonna post any pictures here.. I'm quite happy coz eventually, I managed to talked for 3 min long and I speak quite LOUD today(quite only).. AT LEAST everyone including the teacher who sitting behind could hear my voice la :( .. omg once in a blue moon! can be known as miracle as well LOL. as you know my voice like 'siu jie' (this is what sandy they all said) lah -___- In case you don't know, commonly during presentation girls fringes should not cover the eyes... but I never brought my hairpin to class today! so when its my turn to present, maybe I too nervous or whatsoever la..I flicked my hair away from the face... Flicking hair away from the face is considered nervous body language..ARGHH my marks gone weyyy :(


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there's 3 great things in this world, the first thing is for you to love someone. The second thing is for someone to love you back. and the third greatest thing is for the first and second thing to happen at the same time (:
I know it's love when all I want is that person to be happy even I'm not the reason behind that happiness. maybe you don't love me as much as I love u but..... I still pamper you byk lah baby <3>p/s : yeah he bought a Digi sim card already..hee ;p



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xoxo,
you know you love me

Friday, May 2, 2008

SAY NO TO PRESENTATION at 11:43 PM

next Monday is the day. PRESENTATION!! after so long never speak in front of public...its really stressed me up man! and yet, I haven't get my formal shirt, I haven't prepare my speech and memories it! OMG MACAM MANA? *slap me pls* I should also be aware with my own body language by the way. 3 more presentation is coming up... Malaysian Studies punya paling teruk lah !!!! You have to present infront of the whole April intake students in lecture hall..but do you know April intake got how many students?? I think around hundred. really WTF MAN! will you scare if you were me?? don't tell me you wont

arghh stress gilerr


** Remember, if you are truly scared, the only way to overcome your fear is just to do it. " What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." (Friedrich Nietzsche)


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xoxo,
you know you love me

NEW CHAPTER OF OUR LIFE at 12:58 AM

被爱情伤了又伤

受了伤却不投降

我相信付出会有代价

也相信这个 ' 他 ' 不一样

❤❤❤


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xoxo,
you know you love me

Thursday, May 1, 2008

OUR VERY FIRST TIME at 1:31 AM

do not change your mind



HAPPY 1ST MONTH ANNIVERSARY DEAR !!!

Baby, our anniversary means A LOT. You've graced my life. I cherish your love and companionship in every way. As time goes by, I know our love still grow and it lasts through all good & bad times. You told me our future will shines brightly right? I love your caring face, your voice, your tender, your sweet cares, your everything can? hee! MUAKSS



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xoxo,
you know you love me